luni, martie 19, 2007

A boy and his heart

Once upon a time, there was a little boy that had a little heart! And he toked good care of it! The time passed and the boy and his heart were like the night and the stars, inseparable! Were one went, the other followed...

One morning, the boy woke up, and as he was waking, he felt something has missing... He was right! As the little boy was dreaming, a piece of his heart was taken by the girl of his dreams... The time passed, and piece by piece, the little boy has left without a heart... Sad and lonely, the little boy missed having his heart everywhere, with him...

One night, the little boy went to sleep... He began dreaming... and in his dream, the girl that toked his heart appeared... Angry, the boy rushed to ask the girl where his heart was... The girl smiled at him, and pointed to the stars... The boy suddenly woke-up! Confused, he went to the window and looked at the stars... And to his surprise, he saw the girls face drew in the stars, her voice in the nights wind, her eyes in the moons light... But his heart was not there... Sad, he went back to bed... That night, the girl appeared again in his dream, but this time, the boys heart was next to the girl... Then he realised that the girl and his heart were the same thing...

The next morning, the boy has verry happy, not because he got his heart back. His heart was lost forever! He was happy because, his heart was free, was everywhere around him... And why was he happy? Because with his heart being free, the little boy grew wiser, because he learnt an important lesson: IF YOU LOVE SOMETHING VERY MUCH, DON`T BE AFRAID TO LET IT GO... BECAUSE IF IT LOVES YOU, IT WILL RETURN BACK TO YOU, AND REMAIN WITH YOU FOREVER.

LOVE IS NOT FEAR, LOVE IS TRUST! LOVE IS NOT DOUBT, LOVE IS BELIEVE! LOVE IS NOT A THING, LOVE IS EVERYTHING!

sâmbătă, martie 17, 2007

My first lesson

This is the story of my first love...it happened right after I made that wish!


It was about 3 years ago, in autumn! In that period I was involved in a contest, software contest, and there were a lot of things on my mind. Little that I knew, a girl was trying to talk to me, but I was to concentrated to notice her... After a month I think, after she got almost had enough of my attitude, she crossed my road, the road of my life. In two-three days we were holding hands, and kissing :D ! Cute!!! My past and hers were like water and fire! Everything around me shouted at me to stop this madness...this relationship! But I saw something in her, I can`t explain it but...I decided to continue despite some problematic issues (confidential).
We were together 7 months...After 2months, I made a mistake, that cost me much...I`ve stopped listening to my heart for a day and the next I found myself crying because I felt like I had cheated my every nature, her every smile, everything around me. (confidential) After that day, I made a promise to myself, to never cast away my heart, but to always listen to it, and to let more from my side, and to ask less of her! Big mistake.

The time was passing...everything looked like it was going good...but it was not! the reasons were clear to see:we were seeing one another maybe 5h per week, for different reasons, regarding her. But I didn`t gave a fuck!She was mine and I was hers, and this was all I wanted!
Time passed and after a verbal fight, we broke up! She got bored of me...In June! I was disappointed in me, and in my heart...After 3weeks she came back to me, and foolish of me, I toked her back in 2min...Forgetting all the reasons she brooked-up with me in the passed.It was summer, but I gave all my time, just waiting for her, and I ignored everything around me, friends, family...She was everything I wanted. After 2moths we brooked again. This time it was strange, because, I was kind-of expecting this, from the moment I toked her back.
So what do you thing I did? I decided to ignore her, Childish of me, but it helped. After 1 year I kind-of made peace...What did I learn?


LESSON 1: DON`T GIVE YOUR HEART TO EVERY SWEET SMILE THAT YOU SEE!

LESSON 2: DON`T CHANGE YOUR LIFE, BECAUSE YOUR FRIEND ARE WHO YOU ARE, YOUR FAMILY IS YOUR PAST, PRESENT AND FUTURE. SO DO NOT IGNORE THEM.

LESSON 3: TO LOVE SOMEONE, YOU FIRST HAVE TO BE GOOD FRIENDS!!!AND ONLY THEN YOU SHOULD GIVE HER YOUR HEART!

PS: Confidential means that there are some details that are not mine to tell!

vineri, martie 09, 2007

My dream

A bright light opens my eyes... It was warm... Confused, I looked around me, to find myself on a river of green grass, flowing from the woods high above! It has flowing all around me, avoiding my feet, afraid of me.
I looked up, and saw beautiful flours, flying around me, rising from the river... I tried to move, but I could not. My feet were petrified, impossible to move, like they were not listening to my mind...Strange!, I said to myself. From the woods, I heard a voice, that seemed familiar to me.
Intrigued, I looked up, to see a white light, from the black sky, falling in the woods. I tried to run, afraid of what could that be...A figure was taking life from the black forest...It was a girl, but with two big black wings...She was coming in my direction... I tried to move my hands...my body! I closed my eyes...expecting the worst. After 2min, I opened my eyes, to find the sweetest thing I ever seen! My heart started to rise from my body, when her mysterious eyes, entered my body, my mind, my soul...her hand has holding my heart, but I was still living.
Then she came close to me, and kissed me...From my back, two white wings raised! I could move my hands, I could move my feet, I could fly! I looked at the girls, and she was smalling at me... I tried to kiss her... but the dream was over for me. I woke-up!
I realised what happened! It was my heart, taking to me, saying: "Your dream girl will be the one who takes your heart without asking, and will give you wings when you will most need to fly!...she will complete you!You will be hers for ever, but she will not be yours, because she will be all you are, all you see, all you want, all your life, all your future. And you do not own this things!"

miercuri, martie 07, 2007

Desire

Story of my soul... I always wanted to fly among the clouds in the day, and to dance in the night with the stars...

I always wanted to run in the woods side by side with the wolfs, to feel free to howl, to feel protected by the wood, to find comfort in laying on leafs and looking at the wind running from tree to tree, dancing like an angel, beautiful and quiet, but magical and all so mysterious...
Everything I always wanted....is to feel free...to feel free! But I can`t. So I have found freedom in loving who I desire, how I desire, and when I desire!
I love a smile, I love the beautiful voice that I hear every time of the day, like a whisper in my mind. I love the sweet face that I see every day in my eyes, when I close them...

luni, martie 05, 2007

What is love

What is love for you?Is it a feeling? Is it an idea? Is it a fantasy, a desire, a goal?Love is not in-love! You can be in-love everyday whit a different thing...Me for example, I fall in-love everyday, with the sunrise, every night with the sweet whisper of the stars...every time I see a beautiful girl :D
The big difference is that you can love only once with all your heart...If you`re lucky, you`re first love will last for ever, if not, when you break up, your heart will loose some of the shine it has, and you will loose some of the trust in it!When you fall in love, is not you that chooses, it`s your heat...

What do I want to say to you?In to be in-love every day :0 but in the night choose smartly who to love the next day, because it van bring you happiness or sadness!